_______________Only those who never gives up gets to see a miracle______

Wednesday, July 08, 2009
7/08/2009 11:02:00 PM

Well, the 1mth passed... i sent her flowers.. wanted to give her a surprise by personally delivering it to her.. i lied to her that i asked the person to deliver the rose to her door.. but actually i took the whole day off.. woke up at 10+ to go jp collect the flowers.. then make my way to her block.. hoping to pass the flowers to her personally.

but.. bcos 1 of her suitors called her... i had to wait under her block for 30mins... before she finally answered my call after my repeated smses... told her that i was under her block.. wanted to give it to her personally...
but she told me just to put the flowers outside her house... sigh...

Then all was well... as per normal...

I asked her if i can get a ring with her... well she agreed! So now i'm wearing a ring~
As for her.. i dunno... sometimes she wears sometimes she doesn't wear... the small kid is clever.. he knows that's not some ordinary ring..

Can see she is starting to like that kid... though her mouth keeps saying he is a fucker, a yp.. they quarrel non-stop almost everyday... she really cares for him.. the stuff she does for him, the way she panics when something happens to him, how frustrated she becomes whenever they quarrel... Everything seems to point that she likes him...

Although she say he is not her future.. but she is definitely falling for him...
Sighs... I wonder what am i... has she ever treated me as a bf???
I thought the 2 sweet smses were really nice.. until i saw that she sent the same 2 to the kid as well..
my heart dropped though i never said... but well, it's already an honour to have recieved it though it's just a duplicate.

We've been 'together' for 1mth+ already... the only sweet days was the 1st few days where she specially wake up to sms me... & that she spent 3hrs just to brew that really nice herbal drink to cure my gastric..

But i know i have never gotten her heart... Her heart is always fluttering amongest the many guys around her.. but simply never to me...
The only special thing i have is that she tells me everything about her life.. like reporting status to me... but i dunno what it means.. does it mean that i am that important that she feels it's necessary to keep me posted about her life?? or isit just she needs someone to talk about her personal things to..

She is always being so nice to other guys... i hate it.. but i dont have a say do i...
Steve, though she keep say she hate she hate.. but her tolerance towards him is so much higher..
She gives gifts to ppl... but never once to me... though i dont mind.. but the element of jealousy is always there....

I'm really broke right now... Everytime she is unhappy, i will try my best to be there for her.. listen to her woes.. try to offer advice, just to get shoot back that i dont understand at all... Play pool.. Eat.. Chill..

Sometimes i just wish i could just say a no to her... but i just cant bring myself to say it at all..
I will tell myself.. there is a limit there is a limit... but everytime i talk to her... the limit just goes...

sigh.... Will i ever give up?? or will i perservere and manage to hold her heart??
The ring i keep wear on my finger... but will she wear it?? Will I be such an important person that she will wear my ring?? Will one day we be able to announce to the world that we are a couple??

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