_______________Only those who never gives up gets to see a miracle______

Tuesday, May 08, 2007
5/08/2007 11:59:00 PM

Cant get to sleep...

frustrated...

I'm not happy. and i dont like this feeling.

today morning my oc called me.. just to gimme a scolding before saying that he will clear my off today.

IT AINT MY FUCKING FAULT.
idiot josh told me he no ndp duty today at freaking 9.45pm yesterday. so i told him i'll take my off today. my oc f me that y i everything y so last minute plan.. but me today taking off WAS THE ORIGINAL PLAN. due to all my aos having something on.. i decided not to take off, just for the sake of this damn squadron. when josh (one of my guys) said he was free from ndp duty & offered to take the morning shift, i decided to revert to the original plan.. as a backup, i sms-ed my oc to inform him.
but wth.. today he still call me in the morning just to f me. josh never backed me up..

I'm sick of being the good guy.. Everyone keep stepping over my head... I've had it.. i tried to be the good guy.. letting my guys go off early AGAINST THE RULES just because the officers dont let us go off early.. i let them take off at the expense of me getting scolded by officers for approving. i let them select their days off at their own discretion.

but this is getting too much.. way too much.. josh, my this junior, is stepping out-of-bounds, and he is affecting the morale of my entire team. I have 2 more guys coming in next week and i do not wish for them to follow their example..

so wat if he's rich, drives a bmw & stays in First Avenue? i dont give a damn.

I'm fucking sick & tired of being the good guy to my guys & the bad guy to the officers. Maybe tml i'll go to talk with my officer or even my oc to see how this problem could be solved..

maybe it's because of this problem that i'm unable to sleep... couldn't keep it inside me... had to find some outlet to let it out... many thanks, my dear diary.

waiting for you

ME

Name: Junwen
Bday: 25th Oct 1985
Age: 22
Horoscope: Scorpio
Sex: Male (Duh ._.)
Job: Network Engineer
Fav color: Blue!
FAv mUsIc: anything that's nice (prefer soothing music)
FAv FoOd: Peking Duck, Chilli, Lettuce w/ mayonnise, Brocolli, Root Beer, Kikapo Joy Juice, Mango Juice, Orange Juice
Bad Pts: Nerd, Stupid, small brain, Short, dumb, idiot, unsensitive, useless, wooden block, pessimistic, big mouth (more to come)
Gd Pts: For people to find out! But i tink dun have any la.
Characteristics: Talkative, ~~always smiling~~, dunno directions, pro in sleeping at anywhere, blur