_______________Only those who never gives up gets to see a miracle______

Thursday, June 11, 2009
6/11/2009 11:32:00 PM

The backstabbing has begun.. lucky we had a very short private moment together and we realised that he was the middle person making the misunderstanding...

It is true.. one can resort to anything despicable when it comes to love..
Hope i can gain a foothold in her heart before he kills me off..

Met sister just now... had a short talk... she advise me to put career 1st instead of love...
but i know she also is afraid to commit into love..

Me? I'm afraid too.. I'm really in too deep.. I gave out my heart already.. the full 100%..
Never one day did i not have my phone beside me.. waiting for that 1sec miss call or that sms..
My phone practically exists just for her...

I may never recover from this hurt if she leaves me..
I know I'll be just a passing cloud past her borderless sky..
All the things I've done for her, every other guy can do so too.. and do it better..

She'll most probably totally forget about me in 3-6mths...
But the hurt she leaves will stay with me forever & forever.

I dunno.. I am really scared...
I got no looks, no money, no brain.
The only thing i have that i can give to her is my heart... which alot other guys can and have done so too...

Sometimes i feel i'm something in her heart.. yet sometimes i feel i'm just nothing..
It's a super big rollercoaster ride...

I know she can see right through me.. and she knows i'm most probably tinking too much again..
So she'll always gimme miss calls to let me know that she's free for a chat.
Or even when she's not free, she'll still make the effort & time to have a short talk with me..

Really touched...
U know.. to get the attention of a girl like her... is harder than getting to heaven..
I wish i could be just 24/7 next to her, talking to her, looking at her...
Yet.. i dont even have the courage to call her out of my own accord, hold her hand, give her a hug etc...
To me, she is just that angel from above.. So.. unique so special.. so beautiful.. so out of this world..

I'm really privileged.. to get into her inner circle.. and now, her bf, though it's never announced.
I dont mind though.. I'm already in a position that many many men have tried and failed...
It's even more than winning top prize in toto. It's simply priceless.

But one day, I truly hope that I can announce loudly to the world, that she is MY GF. that i can hold her hand in public. and wear our couple rings together just like every other couple.
To be able to be with her throughout her happy days her sad days her emo days her troubled days.. till the day she parts this world.

I just wanna say... I love you dear. I really really do.. No matter how long this relationship can last.. I will never ever forget the days I've spent with u..

I love you...
To be able to be your bf even though it's never announced, is the best thing that ever happened to me.

waiting for you