_______________Only those who never gives up gets to see a miracle______

Saturday, May 23, 2009
5/23/2009 02:04:00 AM

Well.. it's nearly a week. still emo. still fan.

Changed the blog addr. so that all previous ppl whom i gave access to can no longer see anymore.
dun tink i wanna give this address to anyone anymore. lidat i can write everything & anything i want.

I've managed to put enough money together to get 3.8k... damn.. wish it was before... now damn broke... even a 3.8k i also have hard time putting together.. and that is after scraping almost every cent i have and then borrow from my relative.

My mum's clever. she knows i need money... she can observe my actions.. when i dig out all my money stashes & ask her for my bankbook.

Guess what. she knows it's Avalyn.. omg... she just said "Must be RuiLing rite. or else anybody u wont be so kancheong & so willing to spend this much money"

This time i managed to scrape together 3.8k... next time really cannot already... sigh.. am really really broke...

Have to watch on what i've spend on already... Not gonna buy any more gadgets.. no more shirts/jeans... Shoes wait till really badly damaged then buy. lidat can save $ le ba..

Been so long since i've been in debt... i never owe anyone other than my mum more than $100..

Hope to solve all her problems.. dun mind if it means creating problems for myself..
di siao-ed her by saying her problems never-ending 1.. 1 end 1 come.. she got a lil pissed off.. *emo*

Gary is rather pissed at me. tink he complains alot about me to Anthony already..
Been talking on the phone during work abit too much.. that time off 2 days then weekend then mc again... then i took off days & leave abruptly.. then plus that morning urgent leave i took then never attend the 8am mtg...

This mth.. all the leave & off i've taken... all is for her haha.. i dun mind though. it's really worth it. If this little trouble can help solve her problems.. it is really really very worth it..

Damn broke now.. dunno how i can jio her in the future.. hell.. i dun even have enough to pay for her meals...
Asked her several times to be my gf.. by sms.. by phone.. by face-to-face.. all fail leh.. she siam the question... dunno if she take me seriously or not haha... or maybe she shy...
sure hope i have the chance la... dunno.. compared to the rest.. i am sort of the closest already.. As in.. she trusts me to do things for her, she trusts me to tell me her inner thoughts..
Even when she is seh, she still can remember got me and tell me to fetch her.. although that day i also seh from medicine still go fetch her.. i feel really honoured and happy.. at least when she is seh cant tink properly my name does appear in her head..

waiting for you

ME

Name: Junwen
Bday: 25th Oct 1985
Age: 22
Horoscope: Scorpio
Sex: Male (Duh ._.)
Job: Network Engineer
Fav color: Blue!
FAv mUsIc: anything that's nice (prefer soothing music)
FAv FoOd: Peking Duck, Chilli, Lettuce w/ mayonnise, Brocolli, Root Beer, Kikapo Joy Juice, Mango Juice, Orange Juice
Bad Pts: Nerd, Stupid, small brain, Short, dumb, idiot, unsensitive, useless, wooden block, pessimistic, big mouth (more to come)
Gd Pts: For people to find out! But i tink dun have any la.
Characteristics: Talkative, ~~always smiling~~, dunno directions, pro in sleeping at anywhere, blur