_______________Only those who never gives up gets to see a miracle______

Monday, July 23, 2007
7/23/2007 01:15:00 AM

Okay! this is like 3 posts combined into 1! sorry i've not updated my dear blog on friday or saturday.

For i was feeling rather empty on friday itself. It's like... i've just lost a home.. a 2nd home in which i spent more time than my real home. This home has given me many experiences and many memories. Both good & bad memories. I've learnt more to prioritising of matters & have improved myself to take more stress.

Friday
On Friday 3.30PM, i left the ops room for the last time. walked along the corridors that i've walked for 1yr+, finally presssed the button to open the gate out of the squadron and walked out with a heavy heart. But i never looked back, at the aged sign of 111SQN, for i know, I've walked out of this place proud, having done my duty and will always remain a Jaeger.
No doubt i shall be forgotten soon, but i've done what i had to do & left it for the juniors to take over.

At 4pm+, I reached base PAC (Personnel Admin Center), to retrieve my long-lost pink ic. After an endless amount of signing stuff, I finally recieved my pink ic. Never have i imagined the pink ic in my hands... with that extreme side-parting hair that i had before. My feeling was one of blankness rather than one of exhilaration. I felt an urge to drop a tear, for all the stuff i 'endured' over the past 2yrs, this was the reward.. but i never dropped one. it's been sometime(about 1yr8mths) since i dropped tears from the bottom of my heart. Maybe i steeled myself not to cry, for crying would only display your weaknesses, but i do know sometimes my heart does cry.

Reached home.. put my msn nick as 'ORD LO!' well.. didn't really seem that elated, but nevertheless, still happy that i'm leaving.
After that, i cant remember what i did for the night.. except vaguely remembering playing games and chatting.
Decided not to queue up for Harry Potter's 7th book at 7am @ Jurong Pt due to lousy treats. should have pre-ordered at Borders or Kino.

Saturday
Ah. this is a good saturday as i recall. Woke up rather late at about 12+. was in pretty relaxed mood. wanted to go collect Harry Potter but was procrasinating, as usual. =/
got wind of the outing with bmt mates cancelled, so i was free the whole evening/nite.
slacked until 2.30.. before deciding to go to Jurong Point, to purchase the book & several more collar tees for work.
went to Giodano's, but found nothing i've liked.. tried my luck at OP, nice clothes, but none that i needed. Saw Bossini, not bad.... liked one of the collar tees. I bought 2 tees at Bossini, and decided that i was not really in the mood for shopping and hence, went up to 3rd floor to collect my book, the last in it's series, the 7th book of Harry Potter.
Everything was done pretty quick, and i was home before 4pm...
went online awhile... bathed... and relaxed... then i picked up the book and wanted to read. and suddenly realised, to my horror, that i had totally forgotten the storyline of the 6th book (Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince). i was pissed at myself for forgetting the storyline.. but nevertheless, i would not touch the 7th book until i've got the contents of the 6th book into my head. (i could only recall till the 5th book, order of the pheonix, no thanks to the movie itself). and so, the entire night was dedicated to reading the 6th book.

Sunday
I woke up at 12.30pm, feeling rather fresh, from reading the book till the wee hours.
Alas! I could start reading my beloved last book! I have remained true to my stand, and have not flipped a single page of the book itself, until i have finished reading book6.

I went upon it like a hungry wolf, absorbing its story into my craving mind. for hours & hours, I read the book non-stop. the book had me totally glued. The despair, the hope, the love. Despite all the despair and the many loved ones dying, there was still hope. Hope that they could defeat the great evil. and love could still blossom despite the dangers.

I should not divulge any of the contents, unlike those, having received their copies early, who posted spoilers on the internet.
What i can say is, a hell of a lot of ppl are dead. It's more than all 6 previous books combined.

The battle between Good & Evil, Light & Dark will take place at Hogwarts itself.

The ultimate battle between Harry Potter & Lord Voldermort himself will take place in no other than the Great Hall itself. (abit shorter than i would have liked)

and with this, i shall end my longest post ever. and go to sleep, for the 1st day of my job! which is starting, in 7hrs. I've actually wanted to go sleep before posting this tml. but i had an sudden urge to finish this blogpost before going to sleep.

and so here i am, completed this long post in over 45mins, yawning away.
and i shall say bye to this diary and hi to my pillow, which happens to have my favourite pillowcase. Till then, TaTa~

Junwen

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